I’m frustrated with myself. I’m extremely frustrated with myself.
You know I have been writing a book, and making snail like progress? Well… it has been a couple of weeks since this has been bugging me.
When I set out to write this book, I was not (still am not) planning to sell it. I was going to make this book available for download for free. But I have one clear rule: I will only hit the Publish button if I liked what I’ve written.
I recently tried to read whatever I have written from the beginning, and guess what? I didn’t like what I have written. In fact, I didn’t like most of what I have written.
I almost deleted the entire manuscript, but I pulled back in the end. But as it is now, I will probably scrap the whole thing and write from the beginning all over again. This kind of sucks, because by my reckoning, I am already 80% complete with the writing. And I stopped all my freelance works just to focus on writing this book. And now I’m planning to can the whole thing.
So, I am leaving the manuscript alone and taking a break from writing. Have been doing so for a few weeks already, actually. I think I want to leave it alone, and then read it again and see if I like it more. If I still don’t, then I will re-write (or maybe just give up).
I’m such a f**king idiot…
Anyway, enough of self-pitying. Let me show you my dinner today. Actually, this is more for my mom’s eyes. Lately, the only food pictures that I have posted on Facebook and Instagram were those meats and buffets and whatnot, and my mom was (probably still is) under the perception that those were the only things I have been indulging in.
The thing is, I actually don’t cook every day. In fact, the days when I don’t cook are more than the days when I do cook. Most of the time, when I don’t cook, my dinner looks something like this.
Yeah. Instant organic oats with a bunch of other stuff. Tonight raisins and dried apricots are on the menu. Sometimes it would be a banana, or strawberries, or blueberries, or apples, etc. I can hardly blog or post instant oats pictures on Instagram frequently, can I? That would be so boring!
I don’t do overnight oats by the way. I dislike cold oatmeal, they make my tummy uncomfortable. I prefer warm oatmeal. That’s why I prefer instant oats, where I can just pour hot water over them, stir for a bit, add a bunch of stuff to make a more tasty meal, and eat.
Anyway, I think that’s all I am going to write today. I guess I’ll hunt up some funny videos on Youtube to watch and loosen up myself…