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WHY DID I START BLOGGING?
I started blogging in July 2006. This was one of my first blog posts. There were a couple of meaningless ones prior, but all on the same month. Back then I was on Blogspot. My blog URL was http://realgunners.blogspot.com. Don’t try to visit it, it will redirect here anyway 😉
I joined a forum/community of young people based in KL. It was called Kakilang. Or was it Potatoship? I remember the word Potatoship appeared somewhere. Don’t bother trying to find it also. It has been inactive for many years now, although I still keep in touch with a few of the members. I was the youngest member as far as I can remember. The thing was, some of them were blogging, and it seemed kind of cool. So I started a blog myself.
It lasted for a few months. Then I broke up with my then girlfriend. Also I began to experience what it meant to fail the exams when you do not study hard. I kind of forgot about the blog for 2 years. I did not return to blogging until I graduated and started my first job in Shah Alam. It was 2008 then.
WHY DID I RETURN TO BLOGGING?
My first job was not my dream job. It was me being desperate. I had a Kojadi loan and a PTPTN loan staring me straight in the face. I had to grab the first job offered to me. Needless to say, I was depressed. I turned to blogging as a form of distraction. Of course soon after that, it became a record of the disaster that was my prolonged job hunt in Penang.
At about the same time, there were these 2 things called Nuffnang and Advertlets that showed up in Malaysian blogosphere. I learned that the famous bloggers were raking in some serious dough through blog advertising. I’m not going to lie, I dreamed that I could also achieve that with my little blog. I thought I could make it, because I was going to blog about my UK and Europe experience. I was sure people would want to read those.
I was working hard. I was turning in new blog posts daily. Sometimes 2 or 3 posts a day. I spent hours Nang-ing posts and Dang-ing morons on Innit (I’m sure some of you Nuffnang users will remember this Innit thing). I commented on many famous blogs and even more not-so-famous blogs. I was constantly checking my email to see if anyone commented on my blog posts.
I did not make it big obviously. At my peak, I think I got 20 regular readers and a couple of occasional visits. I spent more than 1 year to get my first Nuffnang cash out of RM 114.89. It was…
fucking pitiful not very much, if I may say so myself. To make matters worse, I began to feel that girls are generally more successful in the blogosphere. Good looking girls just need to make some blog posts with all their cute photos and selfies and will instantly get more following than me. My little sister started a blog that talks about FT Island and shared a few piano sheets. She got more following than me within 2 weeks!
I was depressed with this situation. It felt like I was wasting my time and effort. At the same time I was given more responsibilities at work. It felt smarter to focus on working hard at my job, giving better performance and getting promoted more quickly. So I started blogging less and less. And the reason I was blogging at all was to keep in touch with the 20 or so of my regular readers. In 2012, I was making an average of 1 blog post per month. I only make continuous updates when I have US photos to show off. In fact I went once without any updates for 9 months. I lost all my regular readers as a result.
This inactive period is what I consider my 2nd time abandoning my blog. I made a 2nd comeback on June this year.
WHY DID I RETURN FOR A 2ND TIME?
The first serious post that I made, that I think properly marked my second return, was about a moron.
I started writing again after I got myself reading some travel blogs and some AMWF (Asian Male White Female) blogs. It was these blogs that gave me renewed hope that blogging can be fun. Then as I explored some Malaysian blogs, I was pleasantly surprised to discover a new breed of blogs that I previously did not know existed. Now I am glad that I am part of this awesome community of matured and insightful internet people.
If you pay attention to my blogroll on the sidebar, you will realize that they are made up of Malaysian married women/married moms/old uncles blogs, AMWF blogs, and international travel blogs. I purged all the blogs that I used to follow but got bored with.
[One of the reasons I lost my mojo with blogging was that I began to notice bloggers my age all became part of the sponsored posts community. Instead of reading 100 blogs with 100 types of unique content, I found myself staring at 100 blogs that blogged about the same Samsung event or Castrol event or Transformers screening in The Curve. It was super boring! How the f**k do you expect me to read 100 blog posts of the same things, not to mention giving 100 unique comments to the same contents?! In the end I just couldn’t be bothered anymore…]
I also got myself into those freelancing stuff. I need some sort of an online resume. What better resume than a blog to showcase my writing capabilities? I even got myself a personal domain and got rid of the .blogspot.com thing. Looks more professional doesn’t it?
Making money through blog advertising is no longer my main motivation. Sure, you see the Google Adsense banner ad on the sidebar, although I removed the local company’s one not long after I migrated to the personal domain. I have no intention of making big bucks with these, I just place the banner for the sake of it. If at the end of the day, the revenue I get from Adsense is enough to pay for my domain hosting fees, I would be mighty satisfied.
Of course I’m not saying that I am against any form of advertising on my blog. If I accidentally have enough following and anyone decides to engage me for sponsored post or rent some banner space, I would consider doing it obviously. After all, who in their right frame of mind would say no to money making opportunities, right? 😉
This seems to be longer than I expected it to be. I guess I better stop here.